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Yesterday, I was one of the lonely people.
On Wednesday, Jan. 11, 2006 at 6:23 p.m.

I am sick of being the good girl, AP student, only gets in trouble cause she can't bite her tongue, hasn't even been kissed in 9 months person typing this.

I don't want to change who I am. I'm just sick of being stuck. I'm not even in neutral; I'm in park.

My friend and I were talking about relationships. She said "I want it to be making love when it happens but I'm sure at some point I'll take fucking."

& here I am with my little self imposed conundrum. I want to fuck someone (not anyone) but I want it to be special.

I can't explain it without feeing a little dirty. I'm sick of my virginity but not at all ashamed or proud of it.

I want to fuck Neo. MY version of him.



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